Love Hurts: Chapter 19 Aug 17, 2006 13:06:01 GMT -5
Post by Tammy on Aug 17, 2006 13:06:01 GMT -5
John and Marlena stayed locked in a passionate embrace for several moments. Marlena moaned as John kissed her with a fierceness that made her body temperature rise to dizzying heights. John was lost in his exploration of Marlena’s mouth when she slowly pulled away and looked at him…lust glazing her eyes. He stared at her admiring her beauty. He caressed every part of her face, running his fingers along every curve. He just stared at her trying to discern whether she was real or if she was just another one of his fantasies that he had so often while she was gone. Marlena watched him intently as he explored her skin like it was the first time. She could tell that he was lost in a world of disbelief. “I am here John…I’m not going anywhere!” John stopped his exploration and looked up to meet her gaze. The tears were running down John’s face making a white trail on his heated flesh. He just stared at her with the expression of a little boy. “That was what I thought before.” She began to cry at his lost expression, “What do you mean honey?” She wiped away his tears as he began to speak. “Before…I was so lost without you. I would cry myself to sleep at night. When I would finally drift off…you would be there… waiting for me. I would be so happy. My dreams were so real. We would be together talking…making love.” Marlena smiled at him, “Sounds pretty nice to me.” John nodded, “It was…but then…then I would wake up…and I was back in hell again. I would have you back and then…I would lose you all over again.” Marlena wiped away her tear. She lightly grabbed John’s chin and lifted it so she could look into his eye’ s and make him believe her words. “John…it is real this time. I am not leaving. Please believe me honey…” John wiped away his tears trying to gather his strength. He sat up and gently moved Marlena off of him so she was sitting beside him. He looked into her eyes, “You don’t understand Doc…I am the one who…” Marlena cut him off by putting her delicate fingers to his lips. She stared into his eyes. “I do understand honey. I know what you are feeling right now. I felt that way for over a year. Day after day…and night after night…I would dream about you. Dream about coming home to you. It killed me each and every time those dreams ended. Sometimes it hurt so bad…I felt like I was dying!” She began to sob harder as she talked with a passion filled voice. “This…this is like a dream come true for me too. I am afraid too…I am afraid that I will wake up and you wont be here. That I will be alone again…but that wont happen!” John stands from the sofa and walks by the fireplace starring at the flames. He knows that he can’t do this…but he is finding it harder and harder to hold back. Marlena walks up behind him and wraps her arms about his waist. She nuzzles into his neck running the tip of her nose along the outline of his ear. John takes a sharp intake of breath. “Doc…” She smiles, “Hmmm?” John takes a deep breath, “Doc…we can’t do this.” Marlena pulls away from him as he turns around. Marlena’s eyes roam his body and land on the bulge that has begun to form in his pajama pants a smile comes to her face, “It appears to me as though we CAN do this.” John looks at the smirk on her face and follows her gaze down to his tented pajama pants and he giggles. “Hmm…that isn’t quite what I meant. I mean that we…shouldn’t do this.” John begins to fidget… and walks away from her, before his desire takes control of his senses. Marlena is becoming irritated at John’s resistance. “Well John…I can tell just by…looking at you that…you want to make love to me. So tell me then…why can’t we?” John looks away from her. The disappointment in her eyes is like a knife stabbing him in the heart. He looks at her, “Well…it’s just that…well honey I’m sick! I don’t want you to get sick too.” Marlena busted out laughing, “John…you will have to do better than that.” John looked at her in shock, “What do you mean?” Marlena got her giggles under control. “Honey…we have been…well for lack of a better term…swapping spit…for the past ten minutes. It is pretty safe to say…that if I was going to catch your cold…I already have.” Marlena can tell that there is something else holding him back. She walks over to him and caresses his cheek. “Honey…what is it? Something is holding you back. Is it…is it Kate?” John’ s head shot up, “NO! Dear god…what would make you think that?” Marlena looked away shyly, “I just thought that… well maybe you were having second thoughts… about being with me.” He stared at her…she looked so lost so…defeated. At that moment all of his fears and worries about what the future held vanished from his mind. The only thing that mattered to him was making sure that Marlena felt his love for her. He wanted to make her believe that she was all that he wanted! “Sweetheart…what could make you think that I would want Kate and not you.” She began to cry softly, “I don’t know…it’s just that. Well…we haven’t been together in almost a year and…you sent me all those flowers and gifts…and then at Salem place today, you acted like…like you couldn’t stand to be around me. I thought that you had…changed your mind…about staying married to me.” John wiped her tears away. He slid his hand down her cheek and moved it to her neck. He brushed her collar bone gently with his calloused finger, then he ran his hand up her neck and entangled his fingers into her hair. Taking a hand full he forcefully yet gentle pulled her head back so their eyes were locked, “I guess I am going to have to convince you of who I love!” He brought her face to his and kissed her madly. His tongue begged for access to her heavenly mouth and Marlena allowed his entry almost instantly. When John struggled with his breathing he pulled back from Marlena. Her eyes were on fire…you could see her passion for John emanating from her soul! Her breathing was labored and she fought to speak, “John…” John said nothing. He simple took her lips in another searing kiss as he bent over and swept her up in his arms…talking her up stairs.