Post by Tammy on Aug 17, 2006 13:16:47 GMT -5
John stood there holding Marlena in his arms, relishing the feel of her slightly accelerated heartbeat against his chest. He suddenly realized how immensely lucky he was that Marlena had forgiven him for leaving the way that he did. He knew that he should have told her of his plans… but he didn’t want her to sit by and watch him in pain. He knew that everything that he did was to spare her from heartache… however when all was said and done…she had still suffered!
John looked around the living room of the penthouse and noticed that his daughters had made a hasty retreat…leaving him and Marlena alone. John ran his hand over Marlena’s head which rested on his chest… he slightly entangled his fingers in her silk mane. John gently tipped her head back and gazed into her sleepy eyes, “Doc honey…you look so tired.” Marlena nodded, “Yeah…I haven’t slept much since…” John nodded his head in recognition, “I forgot…you never could sleep very well when I wasn’t home.” Marlena smiled and nuzzled her head into the crook of his neck. As John stood there holding her, he felt her body start to lay heavily against his chest. When he felt Marlena’s breathes become slow and steady, he had realized that she was almost asleep. A large smile spread across his face. He bent over an gently swooped her up in his arms. She sighed slightly, instinctively wrapping her arms around his neck and laying her head on his shoulder. As he began to ascend the stairs Marlena awoke, “John…sofa.” she mumbled barely above a whisper. John simply nodded his head and made his way there. He gently sat with a half awake Marlena resting in his lap. He slowly laid down and Marlena followed. She stretched out on top of John, laying on her stomach. She wrapped her arms around him, intertwined her legs with his and snuggled her face into the crook of his neck, which felt like they fit perfectly together. John wrapped his arms around her tightly, as he let out a small moan…not realizing how his body would react to Marlena’s close proximity. Marlena heard his moan and stirred, “Hurting…you?” she mumbled. John smiled, “Not at all sweetheart…not at all.” Marlena raised her head slightly and kissed John’s neck, “I’m sorry…”. John giggled, “For what?” Marlena kissed his neck again and sighed, “For falling asleep. It’s just that I am so…” John smiled as he felt his own eyelids becoming heavy, “Relaxed?” he said as he let out a slight yawn. Marlena giggled, “Mmm hmmm… relaxed!” John held her tighter, “Sweet dreams Doc…I love you!” Marlena smiled, “Night JB…love you.” Those were the last words said as they both drifted off into the most peaceful sleep either of them had had in weeks.
It was a few hours later when John awoke. He opened his eyes and was shocked to see Marlena laying on top of him…in the exact same position she was in when she first laid down, which means that she hadn’t moved at all. John gently stroked her hair as he though of how exhausted she must have been. He knew for a fact that when they were apart in the past Marlena hardly ever had a peaceful nights sleep. A large smile spread across his face as he recalled several time when he had went out of town on business, and Marlena would call him at two or three in the morning because she couldn’t sleep. He gently kissed the top of her head and lifted her body off of his. After years of doing this type of movement, he was an expert at not waking her up, and his skills hadn’t tarnished at all. He extricated his body from underneath hers and laid her on the sofa gently. He took a deep breath and ran his fingers through his hair letting out his frustration. After he disengaged himself from Marlena he glanced down at his nether regions and he noticed that Marlena’s nearness had most defiantly left it’s impression on him. He let out a rough chuckle wondering how she could have slept so peacefully with his very aroused manliness poking into her. He took one more glance at his love and then headed upstairs to take a shower…and most likely it would be a cold one.
About twenty minutes later John emerged from the shower and stepped into the steam filled bathroom. He had felt stronger and more alive than he had in months…maybe even years. He stood looking at himself in the full length mirror on the back of the bathroom door. He let out a disappointed sigh as he gazed at his figure, “I look like hell!”. Even though it probably wouldn’t be apparent to anyone else John could tell that his body had changed dramatically. His face looked to be somewhat drawn…and he could tell that his muscle tone had diminished. He let out a frustrated sigh and wrapped the towel snugly around his waist. He opened the bathroom door and let out a high pitched shriek when he noticed the figure standing on the other side.
Marlena jumped back slightly and brought her hand to her mouth. Not so much out of fright but to keep herself from laughing. John took a deep breath and calmed himself, “Oh my GOD…Marlena you scared the shit out of me!” John took another calming breath and starred at Marlena. He could see that she was holding in her laughter, “Did I just scream like a woman?” Marlena couldn’t help herself and she laughed out loud, “Don’t flatter yourself honey…you screamed like a girl.” John laughed slightly. He noticed Marlena’s eyes roaming over his body and he began to feel self conscience. He tightened his towel and walked around her out of the bathroom. Marlena looked at his retreating figure and just watched him for a moment. She knew that he saw how her eyes were devouring him…and she noticed that it made him uncomfortable. She watched him as he walked all the way across the room to his dresser and hurriedly put on some jogging pants and a t-shirt. She knew right then and there that something was wrong. John NEVER put his clothing on right after a shower…he was always much too hot, and he would always stay in his boxers for a little while to cool off. She walked over to him. She stood behind him for a moment thinking of how to approach him. She took a deep breath and gently wrapped her arms around his waist from behind and laid her face upon his shoulder. “I was quite lonely when I woke up on the sofa and you weren’t there with me.” John inhaled deeply at the contact she made, “I’m sorry Doc. You were sleeping so peacefully for the first time in what I gather was quite a while. I just though you needed the rest.” John started to feel uncomfortable with her closeness again and he pulled out of her embrace. He turned and smiled at her and then walked over to the terrace and peered out the window. Marlena noticed how he seemed almost uncomfortable when she touched him. She starred at his back and noticed how tense he looked, even though he just got out of the shower, “John what’s wrong?” John shook his head, “Nothin’ Doc…why do you ask?” He tried to sound as chipper as possible and he hoped that Marlena had bought it. Marlena walked up to him but did not touch him, “I ask because you seem so…I don’t know…uncomfortable. Is something bothering you honey?” John shook his head, “No sweetie nothing is bothering me. What would make you think that?” John turned to look at her…he could she that she was worried about him by the haze that glossed her eyes. Marlena shrugged, “I don’t know really…it’s just that your not acting like yourself.” John tired to laugh it off as he walked back towards his dresser, “Oh come on Doc…how am I not acting like myself?” Marlena watched him walk away from her yet again. She spoke to him with gentleness in her voice, “I don’t know it is just little things. Like the fact that you got completely dressed after getting out of the shower.” He whipped around to face her, his voice a little defensive “Well Marlena I can’t very well walk around the house in my underwear all day.” Marlena remained calm, “Since when? You have never…in ALL the years I have known you…gotten completely dressed after getting out of the shower. You always complained that you were to hot.” John laughed at her, “Doc come on…you make it sound like a crime that I got dressed.” Marlena was tired of his denials and became a bit defensive herself, “Fine…then what about the fact that you flinch when I so much as LOOK at you!” She walked over to stand directly in front of him with her hand planted firmly on her hips. “I saw how you practically ran away from me when you came out of the bathroom in your towel.” John shook his head, “Doc that is ridicules…you are imagining things.” “John I can tell that something is bothering you…please tell me what it is.” John let out a grunt, “Marlena nothing is bothering me…and I am not pulling away from you. Please honey just let it go.” Marlena knew that something was bothering him and she wasn’t about to let him hide his true feelings. She placed her hands on his chest and slowly ran them up and down. She glided her hands down to the sides of John’s stomach and let them set there. She felt his muscles ever so slightly become tense at her touch and she called him on it. “SEE…right there!” John looked around the room like he had completely missed something, “See what…what are you talking about?” Marlena let out a frustrated breath and stepped away from him, “You KNOW what. You just tensed up when I touched you.” John’s mouth dropped open, “I most certainly did not!” Marlena starred at him, “John you forget…I know you…I know your body. I know how your body normally reacts when I touch you. When I touched you just now…your muscles got tense…and not in a good way. Granted it would have been a very unnoticeable thing to most people…but I am not most people.” She lifted her hand to his face and caressed his cheek. “I am your lover and your wife John Black. I have memorized every inch of you. I have memorized every reaction your body has ever made from my touch. And never…in the twenty years that I have known you have you ever once…tensed at my touch.” She looked deep into his eyes and saw the worry and doubt swimming there and her heart broke for him, “Baby…I know that there is something bothering you. Please…tell me what it is.” John sighed deeply. He took her hand and brought it to his lips…kissing her palm and then released it and stepped away from her. He walked over to her full length dressing mirror and starred at his reflection somberly. “I don’t feel comfortable in my own skin Marlena. I feel…tainted or something.” Marlena brought her forefinger to her lips to stop the sob that was threatening to escape. John turned around to look at her and saw the tears in her eyes. He took a labored breath, “It’s like I feel dirty…or tarnished or something. I took a look at myself in the mirror when I got out of the shower Doc…and what I saw made me sick. I looked so haggard. I look so pale and I lost quite a bit of muscle tone. I know to a stranger it would seem like I look the same. But like you said Doc…you know me…and you know my body. I knew that you would be able to see even the slightest difference…and I felt…embarrassed.” Marlena wiped the tears from her eyes as she walked over to him. She stroked his cheek and kissed him lightly on the lips. “John you had an illness…you were very weak and you went through HELL to beat your addiction. Honey it is only natural that it would take it’s toll on you physically. You have NOTHING to be ashamed of.” She slowly brought her hand up the side of his face to his hair and ran her fingers through it…stopping at the back of his head as she pulled his face closer to hers. She leaned in and kissed him passionately but sweetly. After pulling apart she starred into his eyes, hoping that he could see the passion and love that were shinning in hers. She brought her hands from behind his head and ran them along the sides of his neck and down his chest while starring into his eyes…noticing this time that he didn’t tense at her touch. She brought her fingers to the edge of his t-shirt and began to lift it up his body. Noticing that he did not flinch or pull away she pulled the shirt up his chest and over his head…removing it from his body and dropping it to the floor. She brought her hand to his chest again and gently ran her fingers over every inch of the newly exposed flesh. She just starred at him in awe…she knew the contours of his body better than anyone…and to her nothing appeared to have changed. He was as sleek and trim and muscular as he always had been. She felt the heat of passion rise within her as she starred at his ruggedly handsome body. She looked deep into his eyes, “I love your body…” John’s body was reacting to her touch, “Marlena…” Marlena kept talking as though she didn’t hear him, “Like you said…I know you better than anyone. I know every line…every curve…every contour of your wonderful body.” Marlena kept caressing him as she talked. “According to my eyes…and my touch…nothing about you has changed at all.” Her eyes were clouded with passion for him. She grabbed his hand and walked backwards towards their bed, “I can honestly say…that in the twenty years that I have known you…I have never loved…wanted…or desired you more…than I do right now!” John came to a stop in front of her and he starred into her eyes, “Marlena…you don’t have to do this. You don’t have to try and make me feel better about myself.” He tried to pull away from her but she held firmly to his hand as she sat on the edge of the bed starring up at him. “I am not trying to make you feel better… I am actually being selfish.” John smirked at her, “You…selfish?” She nodded with a sexy grin, “Hmmm…me…selfish. Because I could spend every minute of everyday with you and it would never be enough. I could make love to you every hour on the hour and never have enough of you. So you see…the furthest thing from my mind is making you feel better. I am trying to make myself feel better. And the only way THAT is going to happen…is if you make love to me.” John leaned forward and kissed her and Marlena took the opportunity to engulf him in a passionate kiss. She pulled John down on top of her wrapping her legs around his waist. He pulled back from her and looked deep into her eyes and he stroked her face. “Are you sure Doc? Are you sure you want this…are you sure you want me?” Marlena drew a ragging breath as she spoke in a strangled passion filled voice. She started planting soft kisses on his face and chest in between her sentences, “I want you…I want you so bad that I am aching inside. I have ached to be with you everyday since the first time I saw you…and I will love you…lust for you…desire you…crave you…long for you…and ache for you until the day I die!” John saw the passionate truth radiating from her soul and he was lost. He claimed her mouth in a passionate kiss wanting to devour her. He pulled away when the need for air became to great. He starred into her lust filled eyes, “ I love you Marlena, more than anything in this world.” She caressed his cheek, “And I love you more than life itself. Make love to me JB…make me whole again.” John needed no more encouragement than that….and he was determined to make love to her as slowly and as passionately as possible. This would be a night they would never forget!
John looked around the living room of the penthouse and noticed that his daughters had made a hasty retreat…leaving him and Marlena alone. John ran his hand over Marlena’s head which rested on his chest… he slightly entangled his fingers in her silk mane. John gently tipped her head back and gazed into her sleepy eyes, “Doc honey…you look so tired.” Marlena nodded, “Yeah…I haven’t slept much since…” John nodded his head in recognition, “I forgot…you never could sleep very well when I wasn’t home.” Marlena smiled and nuzzled her head into the crook of his neck. As John stood there holding her, he felt her body start to lay heavily against his chest. When he felt Marlena’s breathes become slow and steady, he had realized that she was almost asleep. A large smile spread across his face. He bent over an gently swooped her up in his arms. She sighed slightly, instinctively wrapping her arms around his neck and laying her head on his shoulder. As he began to ascend the stairs Marlena awoke, “John…sofa.” she mumbled barely above a whisper. John simply nodded his head and made his way there. He gently sat with a half awake Marlena resting in his lap. He slowly laid down and Marlena followed. She stretched out on top of John, laying on her stomach. She wrapped her arms around him, intertwined her legs with his and snuggled her face into the crook of his neck, which felt like they fit perfectly together. John wrapped his arms around her tightly, as he let out a small moan…not realizing how his body would react to Marlena’s close proximity. Marlena heard his moan and stirred, “Hurting…you?” she mumbled. John smiled, “Not at all sweetheart…not at all.” Marlena raised her head slightly and kissed John’s neck, “I’m sorry…”. John giggled, “For what?” Marlena kissed his neck again and sighed, “For falling asleep. It’s just that I am so…” John smiled as he felt his own eyelids becoming heavy, “Relaxed?” he said as he let out a slight yawn. Marlena giggled, “Mmm hmmm… relaxed!” John held her tighter, “Sweet dreams Doc…I love you!” Marlena smiled, “Night JB…love you.” Those were the last words said as they both drifted off into the most peaceful sleep either of them had had in weeks.
It was a few hours later when John awoke. He opened his eyes and was shocked to see Marlena laying on top of him…in the exact same position she was in when she first laid down, which means that she hadn’t moved at all. John gently stroked her hair as he though of how exhausted she must have been. He knew for a fact that when they were apart in the past Marlena hardly ever had a peaceful nights sleep. A large smile spread across his face as he recalled several time when he had went out of town on business, and Marlena would call him at two or three in the morning because she couldn’t sleep. He gently kissed the top of her head and lifted her body off of his. After years of doing this type of movement, he was an expert at not waking her up, and his skills hadn’t tarnished at all. He extricated his body from underneath hers and laid her on the sofa gently. He took a deep breath and ran his fingers through his hair letting out his frustration. After he disengaged himself from Marlena he glanced down at his nether regions and he noticed that Marlena’s nearness had most defiantly left it’s impression on him. He let out a rough chuckle wondering how she could have slept so peacefully with his very aroused manliness poking into her. He took one more glance at his love and then headed upstairs to take a shower…and most likely it would be a cold one.
About twenty minutes later John emerged from the shower and stepped into the steam filled bathroom. He had felt stronger and more alive than he had in months…maybe even years. He stood looking at himself in the full length mirror on the back of the bathroom door. He let out a disappointed sigh as he gazed at his figure, “I look like hell!”. Even though it probably wouldn’t be apparent to anyone else John could tell that his body had changed dramatically. His face looked to be somewhat drawn…and he could tell that his muscle tone had diminished. He let out a frustrated sigh and wrapped the towel snugly around his waist. He opened the bathroom door and let out a high pitched shriek when he noticed the figure standing on the other side.
Marlena jumped back slightly and brought her hand to her mouth. Not so much out of fright but to keep herself from laughing. John took a deep breath and calmed himself, “Oh my GOD…Marlena you scared the shit out of me!” John took another calming breath and starred at Marlena. He could see that she was holding in her laughter, “Did I just scream like a woman?” Marlena couldn’t help herself and she laughed out loud, “Don’t flatter yourself honey…you screamed like a girl.” John laughed slightly. He noticed Marlena’s eyes roaming over his body and he began to feel self conscience. He tightened his towel and walked around her out of the bathroom. Marlena looked at his retreating figure and just watched him for a moment. She knew that he saw how her eyes were devouring him…and she noticed that it made him uncomfortable. She watched him as he walked all the way across the room to his dresser and hurriedly put on some jogging pants and a t-shirt. She knew right then and there that something was wrong. John NEVER put his clothing on right after a shower…he was always much too hot, and he would always stay in his boxers for a little while to cool off. She walked over to him. She stood behind him for a moment thinking of how to approach him. She took a deep breath and gently wrapped her arms around his waist from behind and laid her face upon his shoulder. “I was quite lonely when I woke up on the sofa and you weren’t there with me.” John inhaled deeply at the contact she made, “I’m sorry Doc. You were sleeping so peacefully for the first time in what I gather was quite a while. I just though you needed the rest.” John started to feel uncomfortable with her closeness again and he pulled out of her embrace. He turned and smiled at her and then walked over to the terrace and peered out the window. Marlena noticed how he seemed almost uncomfortable when she touched him. She starred at his back and noticed how tense he looked, even though he just got out of the shower, “John what’s wrong?” John shook his head, “Nothin’ Doc…why do you ask?” He tried to sound as chipper as possible and he hoped that Marlena had bought it. Marlena walked up to him but did not touch him, “I ask because you seem so…I don’t know…uncomfortable. Is something bothering you honey?” John shook his head, “No sweetie nothing is bothering me. What would make you think that?” John turned to look at her…he could she that she was worried about him by the haze that glossed her eyes. Marlena shrugged, “I don’t know really…it’s just that your not acting like yourself.” John tired to laugh it off as he walked back towards his dresser, “Oh come on Doc…how am I not acting like myself?” Marlena watched him walk away from her yet again. She spoke to him with gentleness in her voice, “I don’t know it is just little things. Like the fact that you got completely dressed after getting out of the shower.” He whipped around to face her, his voice a little defensive “Well Marlena I can’t very well walk around the house in my underwear all day.” Marlena remained calm, “Since when? You have never…in ALL the years I have known you…gotten completely dressed after getting out of the shower. You always complained that you were to hot.” John laughed at her, “Doc come on…you make it sound like a crime that I got dressed.” Marlena was tired of his denials and became a bit defensive herself, “Fine…then what about the fact that you flinch when I so much as LOOK at you!” She walked over to stand directly in front of him with her hand planted firmly on her hips. “I saw how you practically ran away from me when you came out of the bathroom in your towel.” John shook his head, “Doc that is ridicules…you are imagining things.” “John I can tell that something is bothering you…please tell me what it is.” John let out a grunt, “Marlena nothing is bothering me…and I am not pulling away from you. Please honey just let it go.” Marlena knew that something was bothering him and she wasn’t about to let him hide his true feelings. She placed her hands on his chest and slowly ran them up and down. She glided her hands down to the sides of John’s stomach and let them set there. She felt his muscles ever so slightly become tense at her touch and she called him on it. “SEE…right there!” John looked around the room like he had completely missed something, “See what…what are you talking about?” Marlena let out a frustrated breath and stepped away from him, “You KNOW what. You just tensed up when I touched you.” John’s mouth dropped open, “I most certainly did not!” Marlena starred at him, “John you forget…I know you…I know your body. I know how your body normally reacts when I touch you. When I touched you just now…your muscles got tense…and not in a good way. Granted it would have been a very unnoticeable thing to most people…but I am not most people.” She lifted her hand to his face and caressed his cheek. “I am your lover and your wife John Black. I have memorized every inch of you. I have memorized every reaction your body has ever made from my touch. And never…in the twenty years that I have known you have you ever once…tensed at my touch.” She looked deep into his eyes and saw the worry and doubt swimming there and her heart broke for him, “Baby…I know that there is something bothering you. Please…tell me what it is.” John sighed deeply. He took her hand and brought it to his lips…kissing her palm and then released it and stepped away from her. He walked over to her full length dressing mirror and starred at his reflection somberly. “I don’t feel comfortable in my own skin Marlena. I feel…tainted or something.” Marlena brought her forefinger to her lips to stop the sob that was threatening to escape. John turned around to look at her and saw the tears in her eyes. He took a labored breath, “It’s like I feel dirty…or tarnished or something. I took a look at myself in the mirror when I got out of the shower Doc…and what I saw made me sick. I looked so haggard. I look so pale and I lost quite a bit of muscle tone. I know to a stranger it would seem like I look the same. But like you said Doc…you know me…and you know my body. I knew that you would be able to see even the slightest difference…and I felt…embarrassed.” Marlena wiped the tears from her eyes as she walked over to him. She stroked his cheek and kissed him lightly on the lips. “John you had an illness…you were very weak and you went through HELL to beat your addiction. Honey it is only natural that it would take it’s toll on you physically. You have NOTHING to be ashamed of.” She slowly brought her hand up the side of his face to his hair and ran her fingers through it…stopping at the back of his head as she pulled his face closer to hers. She leaned in and kissed him passionately but sweetly. After pulling apart she starred into his eyes, hoping that he could see the passion and love that were shinning in hers. She brought her hands from behind his head and ran them along the sides of his neck and down his chest while starring into his eyes…noticing this time that he didn’t tense at her touch. She brought her fingers to the edge of his t-shirt and began to lift it up his body. Noticing that he did not flinch or pull away she pulled the shirt up his chest and over his head…removing it from his body and dropping it to the floor. She brought her hand to his chest again and gently ran her fingers over every inch of the newly exposed flesh. She just starred at him in awe…she knew the contours of his body better than anyone…and to her nothing appeared to have changed. He was as sleek and trim and muscular as he always had been. She felt the heat of passion rise within her as she starred at his ruggedly handsome body. She looked deep into his eyes, “I love your body…” John’s body was reacting to her touch, “Marlena…” Marlena kept talking as though she didn’t hear him, “Like you said…I know you better than anyone. I know every line…every curve…every contour of your wonderful body.” Marlena kept caressing him as she talked. “According to my eyes…and my touch…nothing about you has changed at all.” Her eyes were clouded with passion for him. She grabbed his hand and walked backwards towards their bed, “I can honestly say…that in the twenty years that I have known you…I have never loved…wanted…or desired you more…than I do right now!” John came to a stop in front of her and he starred into her eyes, “Marlena…you don’t have to do this. You don’t have to try and make me feel better about myself.” He tried to pull away from her but she held firmly to his hand as she sat on the edge of the bed starring up at him. “I am not trying to make you feel better… I am actually being selfish.” John smirked at her, “You…selfish?” She nodded with a sexy grin, “Hmmm…me…selfish. Because I could spend every minute of everyday with you and it would never be enough. I could make love to you every hour on the hour and never have enough of you. So you see…the furthest thing from my mind is making you feel better. I am trying to make myself feel better. And the only way THAT is going to happen…is if you make love to me.” John leaned forward and kissed her and Marlena took the opportunity to engulf him in a passionate kiss. She pulled John down on top of her wrapping her legs around his waist. He pulled back from her and looked deep into her eyes and he stroked her face. “Are you sure Doc? Are you sure you want this…are you sure you want me?” Marlena drew a ragging breath as she spoke in a strangled passion filled voice. She started planting soft kisses on his face and chest in between her sentences, “I want you…I want you so bad that I am aching inside. I have ached to be with you everyday since the first time I saw you…and I will love you…lust for you…desire you…crave you…long for you…and ache for you until the day I die!” John saw the passionate truth radiating from her soul and he was lost. He claimed her mouth in a passionate kiss wanting to devour her. He pulled away when the need for air became to great. He starred into her lust filled eyes, “ I love you Marlena, more than anything in this world.” She caressed his cheek, “And I love you more than life itself. Make love to me JB…make me whole again.” John needed no more encouragement than that….and he was determined to make love to her as slowly and as passionately as possible. This would be a night they would never forget!
