Post by Mimi on Aug 18, 2006 11:26:08 GMT -5
A cold breeze blows as I dip my head, trying to hide from the intense freeze, but also hiding my face from the pain of losing her. Her slender hand reaches once again under my chin as my gaze meets her, a happy and loving one. I stand there, confused yet curious as to why she is standing here, smiling. I search for words in my mind, debating on what and what not to say. She stares at me, almost as if she knows I’m trying to find the right words. My fingers tingle from the cold, numbness quickly taking over, the blood circulation long gone. I feel her gloved hand wrap over mine as she pulled me closer to her.
“John….we have to talk.” I hear her say in the most, gentle words I have ever heard. I know that what she has to say I can not possibly handle, not anymore as I shake my head from side to side.
“I don’t think there is anything to say…” I know that I am lying and all I want to do is take her in my arms and talk all night. The truth is I can’t bear to hear about how Alex is this and how he loves her. I hear her sigh as a soft laugh comes from her lips and her hand pulls mine to her chest.
“Yes there is John…something very important.” She smiles at me as I look at her, trying not to give my hopes up. I nod as she smiles, the most beautiful smile I have seen in a long time. I try not to get too excited but I can’t seem to help it, the love in her eyes tell me all I need to know. I feel my heart flutter for the first time in a very long time. My heart and soul swell with happiness and excitement, something I haven’t felt since she asked for a divorce. Something I thought I would never feel again. She reaches for my hand as she pulls it to her chest, smiling at me. I see the love she has for me, it glows throughout her whole face.
“Please John….we need to talk…I need to tell you something.” I hear her plea and I wonder if it is really what I want to hear. I manage to whisper my acceptance as she shivers and pulls her coat closer to her.
“Not here though…It is too cold to talk out here. Maybe we should go get a room at the hotel so we can talk in private?” She smiles as I simply nod, unable to speak. I feel her pull my arm as she begins to walk away. My feet move slowly as we walk through the darken park, nervous about what may be coming. The snow begins to get heavier as the wind becomes strong and fierce. We walk down the snow covered path, our bodies close, our hands intertwined, as we hurry out of the park and into the hotel lobby. We walk up to the counter as I request a suite while pulling out my credit card. Shortly after, we arrive to the top floor where I fumble with the key card. She stares at me as I try desperately to get the card to swipe and after a few seconds, I hear her laugh. She insists on helping me and then I feel her hand cover mine as it guides me to the slot, and slides it through, unlocking the door. I let her enter the room first as she begins to unbutton her long black coat while I stand by the closet fidgeting with the key card. She turns and looks at me as her laughter fills the room and dances in my ears.
“Aren’t you going to take off your jacket and relax?” She smiles as she throws her jacket over a chair and walks up to me, unbuttoning my coat as well. I close my eyes as I feel her pull off my coat as tossing it over hers. Her hand reaches for mine as she pulls me over to the couch. Sitting down, I watch her closely as she struggles to find words. She dips her head down and after a few seconds she raises it again, this time with tears glistening her eyes and down her face. Nervously, my hands begin to fumble with each other as my legs bounce.
“I’m sorry John…I never meant to hurt you.” She speaks, actually whispers as her sniffs take over. I cannot say anything as I prepare for the worst. “I don’t want a divorce…I need you….I love you.” She cries through her tears as my heart jumps and my soul leaves my body.
I try to find words, words that would describe how I feel but I can’t seem to think of any as she watches me, tears falling form her eyes endlessly. I reach my hand out and touch her face as she closes her eyes and leans her head into my hand. I take a deep breath as I fight my excitement and control my reactions.
“Oh Marlena, are you sure?” Those Five simple words were all that I could manage as she opens her eyes slowly and nods into my hand. Her hand reaches up and grabs mine as she smiles at me.
“I have been thinking about this for a long time. I know I made a mistake the day I watched you walk out that door, and I regretted it ever since. You are my life and you always will be…my heart belongs to you and only you.” She smiles through tears as I reach over and pull her into a hug, a hug that crushes her to death. I feel her hug me back with as much intensity as she places her face into the nape of my neck. I feel her soft lips brush against my skin and I do everything in my power to not throw her down and make love to her.
“I love you…I love you so much…” She whispers into my skin as I place my face into her hair, smelling her intoxicating scent.
“Oh baby…you have no clue how long I have been waiting to hear those words…I love you too.” I feel myself falling, falling in love all over again as I hold her body close to mine. Her lips skim across my sensitive skin as they open and close on certain parts, seducing me into oblivion. She pulls back as she looks into my eyes. I see the lust beginning to build as her eyes grow dark and her long eyelashes blink slowly.
“I may not remember my past with you…but I want you in my future…I need you to be in my future. John, I want you…to make love to me.” She whispers as I stare at her with lust filled eyes. I lean in slowly as I watch her eyes close and her breathing becomes still. Slowly, our lips touch and a shock runs through my body as the realization of our kiss sets in. That moment is here, the moment I have been dying for, a moment she has been waiting for. My lips cover hers as our kiss becomes a little more deeper, a moan escaping from the back of her throat. I feel as I may die right here. I never thought I would get the chance to kiss her again, touch her, or even make love to her. But for now I am content with this kiss, a kiss that snapped me from my devastation and desperation. I feel the softness of her full lips as they dance along mine, covering and smothering them with sweetness. Her hand skims up my chest and to my face as it lays there for a second before running through my hair. I want to keep kissing her but I feel her pull back and for a minute, I fill with panic. But when I see her eyes, I know she needs me and I need her…and there is nothing I won’t do for her.
“John….we have to talk.” I hear her say in the most, gentle words I have ever heard. I know that what she has to say I can not possibly handle, not anymore as I shake my head from side to side.
“I don’t think there is anything to say…” I know that I am lying and all I want to do is take her in my arms and talk all night. The truth is I can’t bear to hear about how Alex is this and how he loves her. I hear her sigh as a soft laugh comes from her lips and her hand pulls mine to her chest.
“Yes there is John…something very important.” She smiles at me as I look at her, trying not to give my hopes up. I nod as she smiles, the most beautiful smile I have seen in a long time. I try not to get too excited but I can’t seem to help it, the love in her eyes tell me all I need to know. I feel my heart flutter for the first time in a very long time. My heart and soul swell with happiness and excitement, something I haven’t felt since she asked for a divorce. Something I thought I would never feel again. She reaches for my hand as she pulls it to her chest, smiling at me. I see the love she has for me, it glows throughout her whole face.
“Please John….we need to talk…I need to tell you something.” I hear her plea and I wonder if it is really what I want to hear. I manage to whisper my acceptance as she shivers and pulls her coat closer to her.
“Not here though…It is too cold to talk out here. Maybe we should go get a room at the hotel so we can talk in private?” She smiles as I simply nod, unable to speak. I feel her pull my arm as she begins to walk away. My feet move slowly as we walk through the darken park, nervous about what may be coming. The snow begins to get heavier as the wind becomes strong and fierce. We walk down the snow covered path, our bodies close, our hands intertwined, as we hurry out of the park and into the hotel lobby. We walk up to the counter as I request a suite while pulling out my credit card. Shortly after, we arrive to the top floor where I fumble with the key card. She stares at me as I try desperately to get the card to swipe and after a few seconds, I hear her laugh. She insists on helping me and then I feel her hand cover mine as it guides me to the slot, and slides it through, unlocking the door. I let her enter the room first as she begins to unbutton her long black coat while I stand by the closet fidgeting with the key card. She turns and looks at me as her laughter fills the room and dances in my ears.
“Aren’t you going to take off your jacket and relax?” She smiles as she throws her jacket over a chair and walks up to me, unbuttoning my coat as well. I close my eyes as I feel her pull off my coat as tossing it over hers. Her hand reaches for mine as she pulls me over to the couch. Sitting down, I watch her closely as she struggles to find words. She dips her head down and after a few seconds she raises it again, this time with tears glistening her eyes and down her face. Nervously, my hands begin to fumble with each other as my legs bounce.
“I’m sorry John…I never meant to hurt you.” She speaks, actually whispers as her sniffs take over. I cannot say anything as I prepare for the worst. “I don’t want a divorce…I need you….I love you.” She cries through her tears as my heart jumps and my soul leaves my body.
I try to find words, words that would describe how I feel but I can’t seem to think of any as she watches me, tears falling form her eyes endlessly. I reach my hand out and touch her face as she closes her eyes and leans her head into my hand. I take a deep breath as I fight my excitement and control my reactions.
“Oh Marlena, are you sure?” Those Five simple words were all that I could manage as she opens her eyes slowly and nods into my hand. Her hand reaches up and grabs mine as she smiles at me.
“I have been thinking about this for a long time. I know I made a mistake the day I watched you walk out that door, and I regretted it ever since. You are my life and you always will be…my heart belongs to you and only you.” She smiles through tears as I reach over and pull her into a hug, a hug that crushes her to death. I feel her hug me back with as much intensity as she places her face into the nape of my neck. I feel her soft lips brush against my skin and I do everything in my power to not throw her down and make love to her.
“I love you…I love you so much…” She whispers into my skin as I place my face into her hair, smelling her intoxicating scent.
“Oh baby…you have no clue how long I have been waiting to hear those words…I love you too.” I feel myself falling, falling in love all over again as I hold her body close to mine. Her lips skim across my sensitive skin as they open and close on certain parts, seducing me into oblivion. She pulls back as she looks into my eyes. I see the lust beginning to build as her eyes grow dark and her long eyelashes blink slowly.
“I may not remember my past with you…but I want you in my future…I need you to be in my future. John, I want you…to make love to me.” She whispers as I stare at her with lust filled eyes. I lean in slowly as I watch her eyes close and her breathing becomes still. Slowly, our lips touch and a shock runs through my body as the realization of our kiss sets in. That moment is here, the moment I have been dying for, a moment she has been waiting for. My lips cover hers as our kiss becomes a little more deeper, a moan escaping from the back of her throat. I feel as I may die right here. I never thought I would get the chance to kiss her again, touch her, or even make love to her. But for now I am content with this kiss, a kiss that snapped me from my devastation and desperation. I feel the softness of her full lips as they dance along mine, covering and smothering them with sweetness. Her hand skims up my chest and to my face as it lays there for a second before running through my hair. I want to keep kissing her but I feel her pull back and for a minute, I fill with panic. But when I see her eyes, I know she needs me and I need her…and there is nothing I won’t do for her.
