Post by Melissa on Aug 18, 2006 16:19:31 GMT -5
Chapter 1
Several months had flown by since Marlena and Roman had returned home to
Salem. What they had come home to, was not something that surprised them,
but it wasn't something that they would tolerate either, or at least not Marlena.
After their surprise visit at John and Kate's nuptials, John had felt extremely guilty
about the whole escapade and quickly put an end to the whole situation.
Marlena, however, wouldn't hear of it and refused to see or hear from John. The
damage he had done to their marriage, as well as to her ego, would take years
to mend her heart. Erasing the pain was not an option, in fact it was far from that.
She knew that she wasn't as innocent as she seemed to be, playing the innocent
party during this time of pain and humiliation. She knew that John had thought
that she was dead... in fact she didn't hate him for that. What burned a hole in
her heart and her mind was the fact that John told Kate a bunch of bullshit about
how she was his saviour, and that without her he was nothing. Marlena flinched as
she sat at her desk, remembering those words that were whispered to Kate time
and time again. She continued to stare out the window, as she heard her phone
ring, snapping her out of her quick nightmare.
"Dr. Evans?" Marlena answered as she took a deep breath, desperately holding
back her tears.
"Sorry to bother you Dr. Evans but you have a phone call.....supposedly very
urgent." Cynthia answered quietly.
"Fine put it through...." Marlena said as she hung up slowly.
Her phone rang once more as she lifted up the phone to her ear. "Dr. Evans
speaking."
"Marlena..... Its John." She took a deep breath as she put her head in her hand.
"John I told you to stop calling me. Please is that so much to ask of you?"
"Hey, well if you knew how to call people back when they leave endless
messages for you.....I wouldn't have to hunt you down. Care to tell me why my
lawyer stopped by today and left me with a few papers?" John asked angrily.
"Oh you got them...good....now do me a favor and sign them...so you can run off
and marry that whore, Katherine." Marlena said sarcastically, as she hit her hand
on her desk.
"How many times do I have to tell you? I don't want her...you are my wife....you."
John's tone cracked as he whispered the last few words.
"Well pretty soon...that won't be true anymore. Look I'll make this really simple for
you. I cheated on you too." Marlena said carelessly, realizing too late what she
had said.
"What did you say?"
Marlena's tears slipped down her face as she let the truth slip out of her mouth, for
the first time.
"I said I was unfaithful to you. The whole time I knew you were with Kate....I
allowed myself to give in to Roman. I slept with him."
John felt like he had been stabbed in the chest, as he heard her pour her heart
out.
"You fucking did what? You let him fuck you?" John said angrily as he stood up
and paced the room. Luckily for him, therapy had helped him immensely, for if he
couldn't walk, he might of suffered a heart attack from all the blood that began
to boil.
"It wasn't like that....It doesn't even matter..." Marlena cried as she placed her
face in her hand.
"Like hell it doesn't. How dare you play the innocent party when you knew
fucking all along that you had been unfaithful. Well tell me Marlena, did you like
it? Did you like the way he thrusted into you, the way he fondled your breasts. Or
did you like it when he turned you over and used you in his own sick way."
"Stop John..." Marlena cried, as she pleaded desperately for him to stop.
"Where are you?" John asked somewhat calmly, noticing that she was crying.
"Work...."
"I want to meet with you....in one hour at the penthouse."
"No John." Marlena said firmly.
"Either you meet me...or I find you...We need to talk and I will talk with you before
this night is through. So penthouse in one hour."
"John please...No…" Marlena said quietly.
"I am not going to do anything stupid... I am not going to hurt you, but I do need
to speak with you. So we’d better get this out of the way now. See you in one
hour." John said as he hung up the phone and left his office.
Marlena slowly put the phone down, as she reached over her desk and got a
piece of tissue. She slowly looked up and said a silent prayer.
"Please God......don't let anything happen tonight. I know I don't deserve your
help, but all I'm asking you is for the tiniest bit of strength to fight off the love I
have for him...please." She whispered as she placed her head in her hands.
Several months had flown by since Marlena and Roman had returned home to
Salem. What they had come home to, was not something that surprised them,
but it wasn't something that they would tolerate either, or at least not Marlena.
After their surprise visit at John and Kate's nuptials, John had felt extremely guilty
about the whole escapade and quickly put an end to the whole situation.
Marlena, however, wouldn't hear of it and refused to see or hear from John. The
damage he had done to their marriage, as well as to her ego, would take years
to mend her heart. Erasing the pain was not an option, in fact it was far from that.
She knew that she wasn't as innocent as she seemed to be, playing the innocent
party during this time of pain and humiliation. She knew that John had thought
that she was dead... in fact she didn't hate him for that. What burned a hole in
her heart and her mind was the fact that John told Kate a bunch of bullshit about
how she was his saviour, and that without her he was nothing. Marlena flinched as
she sat at her desk, remembering those words that were whispered to Kate time
and time again. She continued to stare out the window, as she heard her phone
ring, snapping her out of her quick nightmare.
"Dr. Evans?" Marlena answered as she took a deep breath, desperately holding
back her tears.
"Sorry to bother you Dr. Evans but you have a phone call.....supposedly very
urgent." Cynthia answered quietly.
"Fine put it through...." Marlena said as she hung up slowly.
Her phone rang once more as she lifted up the phone to her ear. "Dr. Evans
speaking."
"Marlena..... Its John." She took a deep breath as she put her head in her hand.
"John I told you to stop calling me. Please is that so much to ask of you?"
"Hey, well if you knew how to call people back when they leave endless
messages for you.....I wouldn't have to hunt you down. Care to tell me why my
lawyer stopped by today and left me with a few papers?" John asked angrily.
"Oh you got them...good....now do me a favor and sign them...so you can run off
and marry that whore, Katherine." Marlena said sarcastically, as she hit her hand
on her desk.
"How many times do I have to tell you? I don't want her...you are my wife....you."
John's tone cracked as he whispered the last few words.
"Well pretty soon...that won't be true anymore. Look I'll make this really simple for
you. I cheated on you too." Marlena said carelessly, realizing too late what she
had said.
"What did you say?"
Marlena's tears slipped down her face as she let the truth slip out of her mouth, for
the first time.
"I said I was unfaithful to you. The whole time I knew you were with Kate....I
allowed myself to give in to Roman. I slept with him."
John felt like he had been stabbed in the chest, as he heard her pour her heart
out.
"You fucking did what? You let him fuck you?" John said angrily as he stood up
and paced the room. Luckily for him, therapy had helped him immensely, for if he
couldn't walk, he might of suffered a heart attack from all the blood that began
to boil.
"It wasn't like that....It doesn't even matter..." Marlena cried as she placed her
face in her hand.
"Like hell it doesn't. How dare you play the innocent party when you knew
fucking all along that you had been unfaithful. Well tell me Marlena, did you like
it? Did you like the way he thrusted into you, the way he fondled your breasts. Or
did you like it when he turned you over and used you in his own sick way."
"Stop John..." Marlena cried, as she pleaded desperately for him to stop.
"Where are you?" John asked somewhat calmly, noticing that she was crying.
"Work...."
"I want to meet with you....in one hour at the penthouse."
"No John." Marlena said firmly.
"Either you meet me...or I find you...We need to talk and I will talk with you before
this night is through. So penthouse in one hour."
"John please...No…" Marlena said quietly.
"I am not going to do anything stupid... I am not going to hurt you, but I do need
to speak with you. So we’d better get this out of the way now. See you in one
hour." John said as he hung up the phone and left his office.
Marlena slowly put the phone down, as she reached over her desk and got a
piece of tissue. She slowly looked up and said a silent prayer.
"Please God......don't let anything happen tonight. I know I don't deserve your
help, but all I'm asking you is for the tiniest bit of strength to fight off the love I
have for him...please." She whispered as she placed her head in her hands.